Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Sadness

 Extreme sadness has come to me again. The phone call I just received has left me devastated. I have a lady friend of only several months whom I dance with. She rang to tell me she just found her son dead.
What could I say, I know the pain as I lost my son 18 months ago.
I sit here with tears in my eyes feeling her pain and also my pain.
Sadness is some times unbearable and hard to take and I know life goes on. One thing that makes me go on is we have to live for the living.
Mourning is but a selfish act on our part. I remember the things I did and the words said with love and some not so nice.
To my friend I say to you you are not alone in your grief and more people you know are with you.

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Bucket list

Doing something different.. Well I did it.. I went to a rock and roll festival yesterday good people and good times. But before going I was going to have a bath and I had one of those moments with instant decision making for no reason what so ever.  I decided to dive head first into an empty bath tub dont ask me why but the decision was made. Cracked my skull yes physically cracked it the blood was pretty dramatic. Nice little cut to the left temple from the round edge of the tub but the cut was from the inside. Gee do I go out or go to the hospital. Going out seemed like more fun than sitting in a patient waiting room for 4 hours.  Funny thing with concussion it makes one do silly things.
Free face painting cool I'm in. Watched the little kids getting there faces done. Then my turn and as I had just shaved off my long hair and being called wolfman that was the obvious choise for the theme.
This little ninja turtle guy all of 4 looking at himself in a mirror turned and saw me his thumbs went up and he looked and said COOL with the most expressive excitement he could muster. I looked back and went WOW you look great.
Havent got to the really exciting bit yet so read on.
This little girl who was before me in the line was watching me get painted and I said to her go and get your dad and get him painted which was a bit cruel as he would not participate in a little harmless fun. I was saddened as most adults have lost the ability to have fun even when it is free. Grand daughters love to paint grand dads finger nails and women who ask why your nails are painted. I just say grand daughter and the response is always Ahhhhhhh, then they melt.
Now the exciting stuff I entered a beauty padgent....Did my walk across the runway with various gestures with my number 21 then lined up with the most beautiful women in the arena. The girl next to me said this is probably rigged and you will win cause you look great, I said to her you look pretty good your self what could I say except that I did not win and she was beautiful.
Still laughing and the pain from the fall was non existent.  Till now.......two days later.

Thursday, September 15, 2016

facebook

It has taken some time to burn out and realize that Facebook is mind numbing so back to writing about me and my real life. I have made a new kitchen in my house and done some work on a small car I am making. Dancing rock and roll has taken up much time as well.
So here I am now single with money to do what I like when I like. Choices and only I to please.
Freedom yes freedom is mine for the taking. What to do find a partner maybe but I don't think there is anyone good enough for me. I said that to a woman the other day and she said I had tickets on myself I returned with do you want some....Tried the internet dating sites and got heaps on the first day then it all stopped recons they do that to get you in.
Well back to real life with its ups and downs, Dog got washed vacumed the floors in an hour instead of a day. Hey life is just fine and I even watched a TED talk on fine. no it's friggen fantastic made a rocket stove out of concrete and it burns with very little smoke I will put up pics shortly.
The big thing in Australia is gay marriage hey I think I might marry me wonder if it is legal might get a pension for my new partner as well. MMMMMMMMM that last one might be worth going for. Think of all that extra money might even pay myself child support.
The bathroom will have to have two sinks one for my other self. If I was to do the marriage thing would I get married in white?
Wow life gets interesting safe sex do I go to which bathroom when I'm out.
At least I know when my partner is cheating on me.  Better or worst at least I wont leave me.
I think coming off the internet is going to be like a mental illness talking to me. Some time I do need to talk to an expert so I think it is all OK.